In my parish, diversity of opinions led to years of inaction (because we didn't want to cause trouble) or outright siege when moved to action (because we were offended by those with whom we differed). How do we learn to live together in peace especially in times of conflict, change or growth? We are emerging from a long conflict in which we lost some members, our budget took a beating and the over two yearlong crisis affected my physical/emotional health.
During our conflict, I went on a four-day silent retreat. That time away saved my sanity! I need time for reflection, prayer, and rest in order to function best. Having been ordained for over 16 years without a break, a sabbatical will energize me to continue to answer God’s call in the remaining years of my priesthood.
I was in Jerusalem earlier this year, though conflicts between Palestinians and Jewish Israelis exist, I still sensed profound peace and a yearning to just “be” in the holy places that Jesus walked. I found there are organizations comprised of Jewish, Moslem and Palestinian Christians, working together toward reconciliation.
I want to go to Jerusalem to attend gatherings with two organizations. I can learn from people who have the deepest divisions and yet know there is a way to peace. In spite of the conflict that is part of life in Jerusalem, the old city is a sacred place in which I felt nourished and replenished when touring on my own time; it is a place of spiritual power.
I felt called to return and spend time meditating/praying/reflecting on Jesus’ life and teaching. I want to shift my internal clock to be in rhythm with the Holy Spirit. At the end of the three months, I will go to Texas to reconnect with my family (my husband will join me there) and conclude my sabbatical time with a silent retreat.
My parish is at peace now, but I want to improve my skills on managing conflict better, bring those in conflict to reconciliation, and manage my reactions in a healthier