Human beings are killing the earth, but we live, work and pray as if this were not true. In our moral development as human beings, "geocide" (earth killing) is still a sin too big to look at as slavery, incest, and genocide once were in our moral past. Having felt a growing dissonance between my vision of an endangered world and my daily round of life, work and prayer, I yearn' to address the implications of my moral perception: for personal life and work, for the Alban Institute, and for the wider church. I propose a journey with both inward and outward movement, over both spiritual and vocational terrain. The inward spiritual journey involves focused reading, centered on McFague's "The Body of God: An Ecological Theology". The outward spiritual journey includes volunteer work with Massachusetts Interfaith Environmental Network, supporting congregations in transformative prayer and action. The inward vocational journey requires discernment of the particular contribution I am called to make in a final decade of active ministry. The outward vocational journey involves mastery of organic and hopeful "whole system" practices for transformation in faith communities. These four movements find integration in an intensive practice of daily writing.